urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nicole2_0 nicole2_0 nicole2_0 2005-10-15T23:28:05Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:nicole2_0:270 2005-10-15T23:28:05Z 2005-10-15T23:28:05Z <p>Lately i have noticed that stress sucks. Why do i have to deal with all this stress in my life? I stress about <font color="#33ff33">school</font> all the time because i'm in fucking college! If I fuck up then <font color="#339999">$15,000</font> right down the drain! I stress about my <font color="#6600cc">friends</font> in college! I mean some of them i stress about when really i shouldnt! I mean I love some of my friends from high school but some of them have ruined my life. Some of them just <font color="#3366ff">pushed</font> me down, all the way to I didnt no what to do with my life. They kick me around like I'm a nobody! Wow what great friends they are! But at the same time I'm scared I'm going to get a phone call saying their in the hospital and they oded! I'm also stressing over so many other things as well! I just want to <strong><font color="#ff0000" size="4">explode</font></strong>! I have thought it over a couple of times of just <font color="#ff6600">running </font>away and not telling anyone where i'm going just to get away from it all! I seem like I've fucked up so <u><font color="#ccccff">many</font></u> people's lives! </p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p>&nbsp;</p> <p>Why can't i be<font color="#cc66cc"><em> normal</em> </font>and have people like me and <strong><font color="#000099">WANT</font></strong> to hang out with me and not have to deal with stress?</p>