Lately i have noticed that stress sucks. Why do i have to deal with all this stress in my life? I stress about school all the time because i'm in fucking college! If I fuck up then $15,000 right down the drain! I stress about my friends in college! I mean some of them i stress about when really i shouldnt! I mean I love some of my friends from high school but some of them have ruined my life. Some of them just pushed me down, all the way to I didnt no what to do with my life. They kick me around like I'm a nobody! Wow what great friends they are! But at the same time I'm scared I'm going to get a phone call saying their in the hospital and they oded! I'm also stressing over so many other things as well! I just want to explode! I have thought it over a couple of times of just running away and not telling anyone where i'm going just to get away from it all! I seem like I've fucked up so many people's lives!

Why can't i be normal and have people like me and WANT to hang out with me and not have to deal with stress?